Even if it hurts me

I know that this will break me

I know that this might make me cry

You gotta say what's on your mind,

on your mind

I know that this will hurt me,

and break my heart and soul inside

I don't want to live this lie

I guess it's rather obvious which song I listen to tonight.
(The truth - Good Charlotte)

I'm not kidding when I'm telling you that I don't feel well. Everything has fallen apart, there is no part of my life that is intact right now.
I hate to tell you this but right now I'd rather just close my eyes one last time. Never having to face this world with all its problems ever again.
Life seems to be so much harder than it should be. I mean, is every day meant to be a struggle? Do I have to fight for my life every moment awake? Is this the only thing that's keeping me alive? Am I even alive? Does it count for living when the only thing that is keeping you here is the thought of dying? The will to die.
My God, listen to this emo freak.
I should get a grip. But right now it feels like I don't really have anything to hold on to, everything is slipping away. Everything and everyone..

I'm sorry you guys, this is just not a very good time.