Drown in your fake personality

I don't know what to write tonight really, the evening has been good, yet not quite as planned. Malin and I planned to be in Gothenburg with Jonatan all evening but nooooo, Jonatan totally lost it when we said we were going home - since he told us he couldn't meet with us today just because his parents were visiting him. So we went back to Borås almost twelve hours early, decided to stay out all night, just hanging out. Then My came downtown to join and the evening ended at around 11PM when we decided to go to bed since we're all waking up at seven tomorrow morning.
I'm gonna acompany my to the doctors, they had some test results that they wanted to talk to her about.
Malin is going home to Svenljunga at the same time, so after that I'll be alone. All day. I might meet up with Sid before he goes to Jönköping, depending on when he is leaving. Won't know that until tomorrow.
Yet, it has been a totally okay evening, they managed to keep me smiling and they almost made the voices shut the fuck up for a while there. I could barely hear them.

I should be asleep now if I want to make it tomorrow, but something is still bothering me and I know that I won't be able to sleep for at least a few more hours. I'll just continue speaking to Johan on msn until I fall asleep with the computer in my lap. Again..

In one way I can't wait until school starts again - it'll make it easier for me to go back to my old habits of not sleeping, not eating, smoking and drinking tons of coffee. Which is good. Not really, but it works for me.
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I don't know why but it feels better to sleep only a few hours each night, waking up at 6.13AM, having a big glass of coffee and then going to school. What ever.

I miss Sid. Terribly.
I know it's good that he is finally trying to stay awake during the days and sleeping by night, but I can't help that I miss staying up all night talking to him. I feel much more safe when I go to bed if I have just talked to him.

However, I should end this now.
Night