Sitting in school right now - don't know what I'm doing really. I'm supposed to be reading and writing about a few known writers from the antiquity, but I find that very unnecessary.. What does that give me? Nothing, and nothing at all.
Looking on the bright side is harder than I could ever imagine, but I'm trying and at least that's something, right?
Last noght was hell on earth in one way. I totally freaked out, but I listened to Gabbeh's advice and tried to talk to him. Worked out pretty good, but I still feel that damn hole inside of me and trying to fill it with positive thoughts and homework and other possible things to focus on seems pointless. I know what I need, but it feels like there's npo way in hell that I'll ever get it back.
Feeling sort of hopeless today, are we? Ohyes..
But I'm gonna meet with him later (I think) and have a cup of coffee or something. Just meeting him again, to see if I can handle it a little better this time. last time was horrible. Standing in his hallway, crying my freaking guts out didn't make things better. And having to be around people for the rest of day, pretending to be happy as if nothing had happened was even worse.
What ever.
Positive thinking Louis, positive thinking.
How ever, being back to school without being able to skip which ever class you want and blame it all on having an exchange student sucks. And I'll have to go to school when we have our day off, just to do that freaking Italian test.
Fuck.
Now I'm gonna try to get something done with my project.
Wish me luck.
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