She can't sleep at night

yep, that totally ruined my day. Which wasn't way too bad actually. Nice job, dumbass.
Enough about that.

There is so much going on in my head right now, and I can't concentrate on anything anylonger. I feel .. restless. And annoyed with pretty much everyone who is trying to speak to me. I want everyone to just get off of my back, but they're not listening to me.
This whole thing with my dad seems to be getting better. At least a little, haven't been screaming, crying och praying to God that he'll die at all today. Now that's gotta be a step in the right direction.

I don't know you guys, I just feel so confused. I still feel the need for someone to hold me and tell me all the lies I wanna hear, that everything will work out, that nothing is my fault and that I'm not alone in this mess. I need to hear it.
Right now, all I want to do is take a walk over to the neighborhood where I used to live, but I can't bring myself to go there alone, and I canät find someone to join me so I guess I'll be going to bed sometime soon. I think that's one of the things about me - I give too easily. If my plan doesn't work out instantly I simply give up. Gotta stop doing that.
I'm trying really hard to lose weight. That is one of the things I'll never give up on. not until I've reached that freaking goal that I have. What ever, you don't wanna read about that anyways.

Now I'll try one more tima ti find someone to take a walk with me. If I don't find anyone I might be going to bed. Bye.